I have deleted and rewritten this post so many times.

I have had a rough morning this morning.  I am pretty down  all right I am very down. The quote that comes to mind is people cry not because they are weak its because they have been strong for to long. (Johnny Depp) That definitely describes this morning. The thoughts that ran through my head this morning. ~Seri you cant cry you have to be strong for Matt. If you are down who is going to bring him up if he has having a down day. ~ The kids can't see you cry you are their super hero. ~ I can't feel down its my job to bring others up and help them out. Then Matt stood nose to nose me (we do that when we want the other to focus on what we are saying and its important) and said, "Seri, you arent perfect. You don't have to be. You are allowed to have down days. So I have a chance to serve you and have a chance to bring you up!"
 Why do we think we have to be perfect at EVERYTHING? And then are so gosh darn hard on ourselves when we don't do that task perfectly or don't do it as good as someone else.
I have learned from personal experiences that it is ok that I don't throw the perfect party. Its never gonna turn out as perfect as it is on pinterest. Its ok that you didnt clean the house perfectly or make the perfect dinner. What matter is you TRIED. You did them to the best of your ablility. It doesnt matter how well your best friend or some person you only know through their blog has done that task. All that matters is that you gave it your all.
I love you all!